Attitude

Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.

~Author Unknown

I was asked today about my positive attitude and if life was REALLY that good (something like that- can't remember exact words). I gave an answer at that moment... but thought about it some more after... and thought, and thought... my answer after all the thinking?

Life really isn't that bad!

Is it perfect? Uhm, no, far from it.

Do I have bad days, moments... more than I care to admit.

Truth is...

I still have my moments when my disability still hurts- emotionally... and yes, even physically.

I still have my moments when my job is TOUGH - an incident happended a few weeks ago that I only shared with Michael, my birth board, a few teachers at work and one administrator. It hurt- but it showed me my strength- strength I didn't have before. 

I still have my moments when I am not such a great mommy.

I still have my moments when I am not a great wife.

I still have my moments when I am not a great daughter, sister, aunt, sister-in-law, friend... etc.

I still have my moments when I tell God... "you know dude- THAT hurt my feelings, why did you let that happen to me?" Seriously - He understands... I may think about using the dude part again though... just sayin'...

I still hurt, cry, yell, scream... but in the end I remind myself- life is NOT that bad. Really.

I wasted a huge part of my life feeling sorry for myself. Dwelling on all the things I couldn't do. I needed to just get over it. And I made the decision to do just that. I got over it. And now, yes, life IS that good. And I am blessed beyond belief.  It was all in my attitude.